While I have been working on my personal development, I realize that if I can't get real with my audience, they won't ever see me as relate-able. My audience would look at my life on social media and think that everything was fake and I wasn't being the real me. They would see all my smiles and think I was the biggest actress ever. That just isn't me. The thing is, I am real. I have really bad days sometimes where life seems to go in a completely different direction than I intended. I have sad days where I miss people I have lost, with such intense feeling that I could cry at the drop of a hat. I know what it is like to have my heart broken, I know what it is like to be in the depths of my real life hell. The best part of my life, in my opinion, is that I am not afraid to get REAL AND RAW with my followers. What inspires me to be real with ya'll, isn't so you will see that I am just as much of a train wreck as the next person, but so maybe you will be inspired. Inspired to keep pushing forward. Even on my worst days, I know that God has placed His hand upon me and wants my life to be abundant in all things.
Abundance. What does that word mean to you? For me, abundance is a gift that allows me to continue moving the positive energy forward to others, when we pass it along. Whether the abundance be in love, kindness, or money I have learned that the more I give, the more I am have. It sorta sounds backwards doesn't it? This was something in my journey I had to learn. When I made my decision that I was going to be happy, I had to learn to be happy with everything in my life. (If you haven't heard the story about that then listen to the podcast HERE.) When I say, happy with everything, I mean everything. I was happy that I got to tie my shoes, wash my car, check the mail, and all the little things in life which often go unnoticed because they have become every day tasks we often over look. The more I became thankful for the mundane, the more moments I was given to enjoy. Now, here is where I took a leap of faith in myself, God, and the universe. I began to be thankful for my heartache. I began to thank, out-loud, the universe for allowing me to experience tragedy. Since I was thankful for experiencing such extreme emotions, I feel like I began to allow myself to feel ALL THE FEELS with such intensity. I could laugh more heartily and be enthralled with happiness, because I was thankful to feel emotions. I'm not sure that makes entirely all that much sense but just give it a whirl and see if it works for you. My abundance continues and I want you to see that you are also abundant.
So let's go back to me being raw and real with you. It sucks when you lose somebody. It sucks so much that you want to scream out to the world with such anger and hatred because YOU lost your person. For me, losing my mom did this. I was in such a hateful and angry spot (mentally) after losing her. I remember feeling complete and utter DISGUST when somebody told me I had to get back to acting normal. "No you MF-er, you lose your parents and get back to me," was my exact thought and I possibly could have said it out-loud. Okay, yes, I said it but looking back realize it was not the nicest way for me to make a point. I was feeling things on one end of the spectrum that not even one ounce of gratitude could have been possible for me at that moment. I was still in the darkest of the grieving stages. As time moved on though, I was able to move out of that darkness and start seeing gratitude and happiness as a possibility again.
With all of this, I am trying to tell you that no matter where you are right now, depressed/angry/sad or whatever emotion, time will move on and you can and will see a light at the end of the tunnel. You'll start seeing that you can be abundant with positive emotions. You will one day look back and be incredibly thankful for the trials and tribulations you have been through because then, you can tell your story to others, with passion and certainty your story will change just 1 person's life. Get real with people and trust that you are inspiring because somebody needs to hear your story.
I want you to say this to yourself as many times as it takes. Get real with the internal you that YOU are worthy of abundance in all things.